I got a little bit of a scare yesterday. The Dr’s office called and my kidney performance has become worse. They warned that I may need to go into the hospital soon, be prepared for a 3-5 day stay, and that the Dr would call tomorrow. I interpreted that as I would be going to the hospital right away – either Saturday or Monday. When I talked to the Dr today, he wants just a little more test data before making a decision, but did reinforce it is something I need to really be thinking about.
I’ve done some research. Dialysis is not something I am looking forward to. I am really at peace though for if it does come, as God has shown me a great deal of grace there and given me a strong sense of peace. I certainly am not looking forward to that day, but I do have faith that everything is going to be alright if it does come. It is kind of a weird blessing in a way. I know I will be ok – Jesus has already won the battle on the cross and in His resurrection, and that grace is all I could ever need. So, dialysis actually will be a way for God to carry me and I trust and have faith that I am going to be the better for the trial because God will carry me through it. So, I just put my faith in Him – and I just dwell in His peace and know tomorrow will worry about itself.
I am very thankful to God, and to everyone that has been praying for the sense of peace I have. Your prayer is so appreciated.
Kevin
