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May 31, 2008

Interesting night

Filed under: Uncategorized — mtbco @ 11:25 am

I had a good week last week. No complications and smooth dialysis. I very much thank God for that.

Friday night was really interesting. There was a new man in dialysis who only spoke vietnamese. No one could really communicate with him, and when his treatment was done, no one showed up to pick him up. I felt so bad for him. The staff was eventually able to track down a phone number, and this man’s granddaugther was able to speak English. They worked through the situation with her translating to this man’s son, and it turns out that a cab was supposed to have been there to pick him up. They called another cab. I felt so bad that he was just going to be put onto a cab, with still the language barrier and wondered if he would make it home to the right location. I had been stopping and praying for him as all of this was unfolding, praying that God would have mercy and straighten this mess out and get this poor man home safely, and also for God to draw this man to Him since I didn’t know where he stood with God, and whether he knew Him or not, a closer relationship with God is good for all of us. Well, it ended up when they were loading him onto the cab, that his family did show up to get him as well. So, I thought that was great. I just thank God for having mercy on this man and working through all of the details in this mess for a positive resolution. This man had the biggest smile on his face I have ever seen when they were wheeling him out of the dialysis center.

I have been reading John Piper’s book “Future Grace”. It is a great book. I am really thankful for Piper’s writing and teaching. The basic premise is that God has shown us just absolutely amazing grace in the past – in all of the mighty works He has done and primary for most Christians Christ’s death and resurrection so that our sins are forgiven. We have so much to look forward to. God doesn’t change, and if He has poured down His grace in the past on us like that, think about the amazing grace He has planned for us in the future. I just have so much faith, hope, and trust that God’s plan for my life will glorify Him, and all of the details surrounding dialysis and my kidneys are already handled, not to mention everything in my life. I just have faith that the mighty God we serve will continue to pour out His grace, and believe the promises in the Bible that everything will be taken care of in God’s time and plan. We serve a good, gracious God, and I just embrace God’s plan and know everything will be alright and everything is already taken care of for God’s glory and my ultimate benefit, and I just need to be patient and let God’s plan unfold.

Kevin

May 26, 2008

Uneventful holiday weekend

Filed under: Uncategorized — mtbco @ 9:22 pm

This weekend was a really good weekend for me – Lisa’s wasn’t quite as good. Lisa was hit with a couple of infections and didn’t feel great most of the weekend. Friday night dialysis was a little bit of a problem. There was air leaking into the lines on the machine, which thankfully the machine detects and doesn’t return to me. It took about an hour to solve this problem, and it took changing out everything to fix. This put us an hour behind and it was a 5 hour dialysis session, but thankfully everything was smooth and I was safe.

Saturday we visited Brush for the high school graduation. Graduation was long and boring, but it was good to see family. Saturday afternoon we played frisbee golf in Ft Morgan, or at least I did and Lisa walked Sally along with us.

Sunday the Sunday school lesson went well, and then my brother Randy and parent’s came up to stay overnight. We played frisbee golf at Beaver Ranch in Conifer. Wow – that is a tight and hilly course. It was fun, but it took us much longer than I thought it would and was more difficult.

Monday we went to see Indiana Jones. It was an entertaining movie – not sure I really liked all of the alien mysticism involved in this one, but it was fun to watch. Dialysis was great – very smooth, and I got on and off the machine right on time with no complications – what a blessing.  Lisa was feeling a lot better too – which we are very thankful for as well.

Kevin

May 22, 2008

Impact of sin

Filed under: Uncategorized — mtbco @ 8:43 pm

Suffering and sin have really been on my mind lately.    Lisa and I served a meal at a soup kitchen tonight.   Seeing many of the people just broke my heart.    It breaks my heart when just giving someone a couple of extra chunks of meat in their soup can be something that makes someone incredibly happy.   Don’t  get me wrong – if I can do anything to help my fellow man and especially something that small, I will do it without hesitation.   But, it just breaks my heart to see so many people in such a situation.   It just makes me really see the need for redemption for this world – and hopefully I am seeing a little of God’s disgust for sin as well in my own feelings – although of course I know that as a sinner I can never know the full extent and I am just so thankful for His grace.   I thank Jesus every day that He has already accomplished this redemption for us on the cross, and I eagerly await the time when that redemption is fully realized.   Come Lord Jesus – soon!

It has been a smooth and routine week so far.   My hands and feet are healing.   I am so thankful.

Kevin

May 19, 2008

Good weekend

Filed under: Uncategorized — mtbco @ 9:10 am

Friday’s dialysis was uneventful and I didn’t have any side effects on the new antibiotic.   Saturday Lisa and I went and saw Prince Caspian.   I liked it – but, they did deviate from the book and I didn’t think the deviation was an improvement.   We took it pretty easy the rest of the day.   Lisa did an amazing job cleaning up some of the landscaping around the yard.

Sunday school and church went well.   It was another pretty laid back day of healing.   I got out and mowed the lawn – it was pretty jungle like after getting missed the weekend before.   We then had “The Truth Project” Sunday night to wrap up a good, uneventful weekend.

My joints are still a little out of whack from the hospital / fever.   It’s not gout – but I think the cartilage in my hands and feet is just a little swollen and uncomfortable.    So, no Long’s Peak climb this weekend – but hopefully I’ll be healed up enough to start some short hikes again.

Kevin

May 15, 2008

Details on Hospital stay

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It all started on Thursday. I played ultimate frisbee at lunch. It had been raining all day, but we had a great window to go play. So, I went out and played on the wet field and had a great time. By the time I got home though, I noticed that my legs were starting to become really uncomfortable, and I really wanted to take a bath. I don’t know if this was the start of some hives, or completely unrelated to the rest of the experience. But, then I was pretty restless and feeling bad the rest of the night to the extent I wasn’t able to get much sleep Thursday night and unable to work Friday. After resting during the day, I was feeling pretty good when it came time for dialysis. I went in to dialysis, and I was running a small temperature and the cathether site was kind of red. They drew blood cultures, and after talking with the Dr on call decided to give me a dose of vancomycin.

I had had vancomycin three times before this. The first time was when the original infection was discovered and we went into the emergency room. I got really itchy feeling during the treatment, but it seemed tolerable then and that was a common reaction to vancomycin. So, we decided to just watch it closely on the next treatment, and give me some benadryl if it was looking like I was getting these symptoms. The second time, I just got some minor restlessness, but it seemed like a good treatment and I was tolerating it. Pretty much same with the third treatment.

So, this fourth treatment, I was expecting a little restlessness and it did happen while I was being infused. I think it was more restlessness than the previous 2 times. My blood pressure was then really low when I got off of the machine and I was a little light headed. After resting for about 10 minutes, things were a little more normal and I went home, although I wasn’t feeling well. I also promised to watch the fever closely. Home usually makes me feel a lot better – but this time I just started feeling worse and worse. My stomach started hurting, and the fever had gone up to about 100. I couldn’t sleep, so stayed up on the couch watching movies. I eventually dozed off, and woke up at about 3 AM. I checked my temp, and it was 103. I woke up Lisa, and we rushed into the emergency room. I felt horrible now – fever, hands and feet had gone numb, and the stomach pain. I figured maybe I had appendicitis or something like that that might need immediate surgery. When I got to the hospital, my temperature was down a couple of degrees. But, the on-call doctor immediately suspected catheter infection, and they drew more blood cultures and decided I needed to stay in the hospital a couple of days. Someone then showed up to take me to dialysis? Lisa looked at him and said “He just had dialysis last night”, and the guy walked away. Then, the nurse came in and explained that the plan was for me to get dialysis again on Saturday morning, and then the temporary cathether would be removed, then, more vancomycin, and if it is looking like the cultures are coming up negative we’ll send you home and you can get a new catheter Wednesday before dialysis. This was horrible news to me – I hate the hospital, but seemed like a good, conservative approach. So, dialysis went well and I was able to relax and get some sleep, and my fever was looking much better. The dialysis nurse also removed the temporary catheter at this time. So, I got up to the room, and got started on the vancomycin drip. This time – I felt even worse than before. I just couldn’t sit still, and my hands and feet went just incredibly numb. We begged the nurse to stop so that I could just walk around the ward a few times and maybe get rid of some of the restlessness. They thought maybe it was the benadryl they had given me before the treatment that was making me so restless, and agreed. So, Lisa and I took a few laps around the ward and things seemed to be feeling better. We started up the drip again – and this time it was even worse than before. Instead of numbness in my hands and feet, it was just intense pain – like 7 or 8 out of 10. We quickly got the nurse and begged her to stop. The Doctor just couldn’t understand the symptoms, but the nurse saw just how bad it was and took me off and said they’ll figure out something else. We tried the walking loops around the ward this time. It helped a little, I went from pain just back to numbness and uncomfortableness, but not back to normal. I don’t think anything else really happened on Saturday – but it was a bad day.

Sunday, I was still feeling pretty awful with the fever, stomach discomfort, and numbness. Also, at some point along this timeframe, hives/fever blisters had developed on my legs. We think Friday night at the peak of the fever, but it could have been as early as Thursday after ultimate. I got an ultrasound this morning to look for pancreatitis or anything else in my stomach area that would explain the stomach discomfort. Everything looked normal on the ultrasound, so that was a relief. I had already started to suspect this, but the stomach discomfort was solvable with a laxative. Things were just way out of whack due to everything else going on. We got back up to the room, and appreciated visits from my parents and Lisa’s sister Lori and husband Jon. That night, I got a different antibiotic infused that I tolerated much better – but the working theory was still a catheter infection.

Monday, the stomach was feeling better, and I was probably a little less numb. We also got some of the blood culture results back. Everything was negative – except the tip of the catheter which did grow something. There are a couple of theories about this – either contamination or that it still supports the catheter infection theory. Lisa’s parents came and visited us and this was much appreciated, as also did my friend Dave from work. They were quite worried I think after hearing how awful I must have looked on Sunday when the digestion problem was still worked in with everything else. We were hopeful I would be able to go home from the original timeframe we were speculated in the emergency room. But, I still had fever, so it didn’t work out. I did get the antibiotic again right before bed.

Tuesday was about like Monday – we were hopeful of going home, but I still had enough of a fever and we hadn’t learned anything conclusive enough that everyone concurred the best approach was to keep me one more day, get the catheter inserted, test it out in dialysis, and then I could go. They also wanted to get involved the infectious disease group and get their opinion on the antibiotic treatment and diagnosis. Lisa and I were also getting set up for the daily antibiotic infusions at home for a couple of weeks – not fun, but we were prepared to do this.

Wednesday, the catheter placement went well. Temporary cathethers aren’t bad at all – or I am just getting way too used to it. We then saw the infectious disease doctor. I think he concurred with the need to continue on the antibiotics and insure we kill any infection. He didn’t have a good explanation for the numbness either, but they were all pretty certain by now that I was allergic to some extent to vancomycin and shouldn’t be given it again unless it was just the last case scenario. He mentioned and ordered some blood tests thinking there might have been some type of virus involved here too, but that since my fever had now broken, and the hives seemed to be healing, that everything should be good for releasing me today still. He also had a better recommendation for an antibiotic, and this was one that could be given at dialysis only and not needed daily, so that was great. Dialysis went well, and after some frustrating “hospital time” waits for the final blood draw, I was released.

This hospital stay was just brutal to me. I feel so beat up by it – and got to some quite low points feeling sorry for myself. Always though, I knew that I could go to Jesus in prayer, and that He had suffered far worse than this for me, and that all I was going through was temporary. That always brought me the peace I needed to continue, and I am so thankful.

Lisa and I are both feeling pretty tired and beat up today. Please continue to pray for us – specifically for healing, and that I don’t have side effects from the new antibiotic and it is effective in clearing all this up. Please pray that we can get through this and get to the next modality – peritoneal dialysis – if that is God’s will for me. Praise be to God for carrying us through the past few days.

2 little blessings from this – first we prayed a lot. I really had to turn to God – everywhere I was in the hospital which is something I should do anyway. But, just down the hall from my room was the neatest little prayer chapel – so that was a good place to pray. Second – I got to shower quite a few times in the few days I didn’t have a catheter. I love showers, and with stitches from catheters along with the high contamination risk if you get them wet, it has been a long couple of months of sink shampoos and sponge baths.

My prayers go out to all of the people in Myanmar and China with the recent disasters. May the people who don’t know our Lord find Him somehow in the relief efforts.

I still don’t know for sure it is related, but I have decided to retire from ultimate frisbee games when I have a catheter in. If you saw the fields we play on – it is just too big of a risk for infection I think.

Kevin

May 14, 2008

Count your blessings

Filed under: Uncategorized — mtbco @ 9:16 pm

Short post tonight – I am exhausted.   I am home from a 5 day hospital stay that started in the emergency room at 4 AM Saturday morning.   God really carried me through it – it was one of the worst experiences of my life.   When I get asked if I am alergic to any medications – I now know to answer vancomycin.   Christ is my primary blessing – I depended on Him so much this past 5 days.   Lisa was just amazing again and always there and supportive.   Anyway, I’ll add details tomorrow.

Kevin

May 6, 2008

Update

Filed under: Uncategorized — mtbco @ 12:54 pm

It has been busy. Lisa and I were looking at our schedule, and I think for the past 2 weeks when you factor in dialysis we’ve had something going every night. The dialysis treatments have been going smoothly. That has been a real blessing. They drew blood cultures last night to check if the infection is gone. I’ll find out soon – and I guess get to do all of the catheter replacements again and get back to a permacatheter. Hopefully this will be the last round of that before I can get trained on peritoneal dialysis.

We played frisbee golf with my parents and Dave at Badlands on Saturday morning. That was a lot of fun. There was just enough wind I think it threw off everyone’s putting, but we all still had fun. Lisa and I then went to the Rockies game Saturday night. It was the most boring batting practice I have ever been too. I think there were only 4 home runs by the Dodgers – none of them close to us. The game was much more exciting, but the bad guys won.

Sunday school went well. We finished up the more theological portion of Colossians. Now, we’ll have a few weeks of practical living on how to apply the theology. We went and watched Iron Man after church. The movie is definitely coming out of a humanist worldview like most comic books so you do need that interpretive lense, but I thought it was very well done and very entertaining. We then had “The Truth Project” Sunday night. It was excellent. It was on “The American Experiment”. It talked about the faith of our founders, and how we have really gone astray from their vision. I’ll try to add more about this when I get more time as it just fascinates me.

Kevin

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